When feelings of unworthiness and failure are etched in the subconscious, the ego creates another false self that we commonly refer to as the victim. “People are against me, and I get no breaks” becomes our inner dialogue.
Moments like the one I have shared for the last few days, where the ego seeks to strengthen its worth, repeat themselves over and over again in life. When multiplied, these incidents form unconscious programming that can lead to all kinds of anxieties and even sicknesses.
The whole incident was nothing more than a pointless battle of egos. To validate my sense of identity, I needed to be right, and I needed my opponent to be wrong. What purpose did that achieve? Did I walk away with a new car? Did I leave with a good feeling? By the end, I had lost both time and energy.
…I had interpreted his comments as an attack on my identity. Struggling with the inescapable feeling that I may not be enough the way I am, the conversation had fueled my insecurities.
Just as I was leaving, the sales rep motioned for me to roll down my window. I stopped to hear what he had to say. Clearing his throat, he looked at me and asked, “What did you mean about the GPS not working very well?”
